by: Guest Blogger Ms. Izzie Stevens (pen name)
'As silly as it may sound coming from a grown up woman, I am only now getting to know the real me. Of course I always had a clear view of what defines me: my values and priorities, my individuality, my relationships, my dreams and aspirations, my faith... But as is shown me the past year, adversity has a way of making you look at yourself in a way you never had before and make you realize what stuff you are really made of. It will defy what you think you can and cannot endure, what you should and should not compromise, what you can and cannot live without.. The thing with brokenness is you are left with pieces to put back together and in the process create something that is far different from what it once was.
The pieces I have, if left to me to put back together, will not make a whole. There are some pieces I have lost and can never regain; a few I have unwillingly set aside. Thinking about it, maybe it is not that I am now only knowing the real me. But I being pruned, refined, remoulded... Painful processes to be going through. Especially so that reasons for which I have yet to understand.. I have tried different ways to deal, each one getting me more confused and lost than before. That is until I realized I have been placing my trust to that which is also lost - my self.
It is not easy giving to God all the pieces I hold - especially those so dear, for Him to put back together according to His design, to trust that He will fill up the empty spaces left by the pieces I no longer have. It is a daily surrender coupled with His grace.. Not easy, yes, but in surrendering the pieces of me to Him, I came to understand the most important thing in defining who I am --- I am His. '
izzie will be performing in broadway very very soon. she's a gentle person but will not hesitate to kick your ass specially when you try to snatch her bag. izzie is originally from rizal. she works for a british firm based in makati. we've been friends since college.
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