January 21, 2008


Like a pedicure for a double leg amputee it would be most inappropriate at the moment for me to give my personal take to the Kiks & Mandaya Project I signed up for. So I outsourced.

Ok.

Boy meets boy. Boy fucks boy. Boy loves boy. Other boy do not love boy. The oldest story in the world. Hence the letter below.

(NOTE as in NOTE. Bryan is neither boy or other boy. My story is more of a pornographic tragedy. This is a non-fiction)
(contact me if you wish to decrypt the text below)

"Dear xxxooxx,

This is the first letter I am writing you and i find it even difficult to start...It must have been plain attraction the first time I saw you but what happened afterwards surprised me...Everything happened so fast and it left us both hurting...I am writing this letter to you to let you know that I'm in a journey towards making peace with you and hopefully lessen the hurt we are both experiencing...

I am sorry I scared you, I did not realize that because I was scared myself...Scared to let you go...I honestly felt something special for you and I never wanted to let go no matter how hopeless it may seem...I was a little crazy, I guess but I just thought of fighting for what I feel, endure whatever comes because I thought in that way you would appreciate that kind of love I am willing to share with you...The kind of love many people dream of but seldom find...



I don't want to feel angry or bothered anymore because it only attracts angry and negative people in my life...Dont worry, this time no more threats, no more demands...I will be waiting at the center of the soccer field at Burnham park from 5 pm Saturday until 5 pm on Sunday.

I am doing this for myself...I want to earn your respect and I want you to feel my sincerity that I desire nothing but your forgiveness...

After doing this sacrifice, only then I can forgive myself for hurting a man to whom I promised 5 years of my life...

It's your decision if you still wanted to talk to me, with everything that happened between us, I understand if you're not yet ready to see me and I will not force you again...

What kind of love I have for you, I cannot say...All I know is that it exists. It's like the wind, you can`t see it but it is there... To only love is my passion in life.

Meeting you made me learn 2 things
1. how to love someone
2. how to let go of someone you love
...But I guess I am not that smart enough to remember both...I can only remenber the first one...

With you, beside you
xxxooxx"
***
"One person can't be happy enough for the two of us."
GETTING PERSONAL
Chris Manby

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posted by Bryan Anthony the First at 1/21/2008 |



14 Comments:

At 12:48 PM, Anonymous chase said........
What a romantic letter but very sad at the same time. Love is really complicated
 




At 6:32 PM, Blogger kalansaycollector said........
lurv nga naman hano?

hay up na rin yung post ko regarding kis and mandaya assignment. ;p
 




At 6:34 PM, Blogger jericho said........
sigh. sigh. sigh. why is it that many of us want to a have happy-ever-after ending but still manage to f*#k up our life with the ones we love.
 




At 7:53 PM, Blogger MANDAYA MOORE: Ang bayot sa bukid said........
nakikisabay sa "sigh" ni jericho.
 




At 3:37 PM, Blogger carl said........
i can't put my finger on this one. on one hand it's really sincere and sad, on the other, it's borderline psychotic.

if this was a movie and if i were in the letter sender's life, i think i'd be the kontrabida. you, brian, would be the konsintedora.
 




At 3:48 PM, Blogger Kiks Phulumulu said........
realizations come late. kapag nangyari na ang lahat...
 




At 12:30 PM, Blogger goddess said........
naiiyak ako sa linyang, "I can only remember the first one.."

gosh.
 




At 3:27 PM, Blogger John Halcyon von Rothschild said........
AWWWWWW!!! We need more romance in this world. *sigh*
 




At 9:53 PM, Anonymous reyna elena said........
'bat nga ba iisa ang mga linya naten just put together in different words? touchyness naman toooo!!!!
 




At 3:42 AM, Blogger Scarlet said........
i lurrve this post. :) isn't it saddening?.. gay people nowadays should start taking happy pills. realizations that soon turn into regrets really are such a pain in the ass. hmpf.
 




At 12:55 PM, Blogger LAD said........
salamat sa pagdaan bry!

haha pang poster ba ng rustans. sige masubukan ngang ibenta sa kanila baka kumita pa ako haha.

isang magandang araw!
 




At 10:34 PM, Blogger Sexymoi said........
Hu hu hu... why is it so hard to let go of someone we really love... and why in the world do we feel like if we lose someone we love, we also lose our self. is it just me? :(
 




At 8:06 AM, Blogger Rachel said........
Cute

http://damnprettyrachel.blogspot.com/2008/01/gay-chronicles.html
 




At 8:07 AM, Anonymous Rachel said........
See my contribution. Follow my link.